slowly getting back into this

hey. it's STILL been awhile.

i find it difficult (or dull) to write for the sake of writing; but things occur daily, however, that i SHOULD write about. need to. because...

i'm lazy.

strike that.

i have a family... they, my dear friend, take up a lot of time. it's true.

but i'd have it no other way.

i love the weekday mornings, after elaina has awoken and stepped into the shower, when sage has started to stir (needing the bathroom no doubt) and i go and get rowan. sometimes she's happy, sometimes she's not. often times, she's fetal, legs up to her chest as i pull her little body to mine, lean her head over my shoulder and cuddle her... all the while as i'm looking for her "binky" and checking the fridge for formula.

that's our time. between 6:00am and 6:45am... we lay in bed... her in her boppy, me against a mountain of pillows, sans the one or two i put between her and the tower fan... watching her as i hold her bottle and she starts to get happier, finally getting some nourishment after a good sleep,... holding her bottle, there's me, watching her hands grasping her father's fingers, her bottle, her face... her eyes searching, wondering, contemplating; the news telling me traffic and weather as our backdrop.

i love those times.